La BB...

todays post was supposed to be about my weekend at a club called "El Bosque", i went with my dad and my cousin Alexandra (alex or lexi), but i really don't want to talk about it because i can't think of me having fun when something terrible happened today.

i woke up with my sisters steps, she was going downstairs fast, then i herd Tia Toti crying and saying something about my grandmother, so i ran to my moms room where they were. and i saw my mom and tia sobbing and saying that Aitana had passed away in her sleep.

i know that God is doing the best thing by taking her, because she would't have had a normal childhood in her situation, but then why did he wait, why did let us get so attached, i mean i we were planing to have her stay and my house for a few days, i want every day to see her, even if i couldn't hold her, i was there, why let us think she could survive this, just to take her and make us go through the pain of loosing another family member, so young, it's not fair.

i'm not saying i don't believe in God, or that i hate him, nothing like that, but i do wish he could tell us why he does this, twice in such little time? if i'm hurt by the loss of my two cousins, then i can't even imagine what my aunt and uncle are going through.

we prayed and hoped and did all that we could, why take her, so small... i really thought she would recover.

half a year...

watercolor pic of me :P

Roxy y Leticia (class project)

Aitana and me ♥

i can't believe that half a year has gone by, meaning that i have successively made it through my first semester in college XDDD.

thing i happy about, so far, : going to get help on my anxiousness (super nerves are gone) got good grades in all my classes, made great friends... nothing else, but that's a lot :P

so i now have time to spear, and most of it is spent with La Baby (aitana), who is fighting hard still, and sleeping (LOTS ANS LOTS OF SLEEPING!!!!)

the rest is probably going to go for night events jajaja (friends and party, hopefully)

i'm sooooo behind on my music and blog, i'm really ashamed of lack of writing as well, just with all the projects i had to do, there wasn't enough time, i mean that the time i did have i spent with the family or sleeping.... but anyway it's all over.

my cousin Alex is coming really soon, and so is Alfredo, so my mom is going to move upstairs for a while till he leaves :P (i think shes going to stay in my room this time) jajaja

i'm off to study for the last 2 test i have next week (BORING)...

OH! i found this web site "be funky" its a photo editor page, like picnik, only it also has this cool art stuff too, LOVE IT!! on of the pic above i edited it there XD

I still havn't met her )= ...

Aitana Maria Campodónico Baca, my baby cousin who is still in intensive care and just had an operation today, is fighting hard to stay with us. all i wanted to say is that i hope whoever reads this will pray for her. she's the first daughter my uncle had, and after the passing of their son Alonso, she was the miracle we all wanted. But now we ask for another one, so they can bring her home and she can grow up to be a normal little girl. so please pray for her if you can.

19 years old...

dad cooking jeje :)

i feel no different, actually i even feel younger, but not in good way. i'm still feeling scared, anxious and nervous a times, for no reason. getting used to college is harder then i thought, but i'm trying my best to surpass it. but my mom, just in case, is going to take me to a psychologist to find out what can been done (how to stop me from felling this way) she says i'm going to make myself sick if i keep acting this way. i believe shes right...

anyways, going back to my birthday, i had a family reunion, Butifarras and cake! YUMM!

the hole family cam, well that obvious, 'cause we all live together XD

today in class, all my friends congratulated me and i had nice day too

i got nice gifts, like the one in my other post :) nothing else happened

Till today, we got great new about Aitana, she opened her eyes just a little XDD we're still hoping for more movements, but doctors say that its a good sign .

pics are of yesterday night...