Starting to go out, maso...

ok. so i'm 17, 18 in may, and i'm never been the type of girl to go out on weekend with friends. yes i know, wired, but that’s how i am and it never really bothered me until my dad one day said (not in a bad way, just saying it like a comment) "so when are you going to start going out till late hours of the night?" then laughed and left, i laughed too; but it made me think 'bout how much i bet i've missed by not going to clubs, or other sorts of stuff, with my group. So yesterday my cousin told me she was going to Tayta, which is bar, and where her friends play every saturday; anyways she asked if i wanted to go, and the image of me sitting in my room on a saturday night (alone) like always, just made me all the more sure that i had to get OUT! I had fun, the group was great, Los Pockets is the name and the three band members were really cool, one was cute, hot & short grr (but for the first time that really didn't bother me) XD, but of course my cousin had dibbs on him. We stayed out till 3:30, my mom was worried, wait that’s an understatement, my hole family kept calling asking where we were and how was everything, etc. so you kind of get why i've never really gone out before, they get me all nerves and i decided it's better not to risk it (mentel not, future lover, boyfriend or what ever, must like to go out have a drink or two, in a simple word, fun) or else i will never leave my house. oh! he must also give me a boost a confidents every once and a while. jejeje, ya since a guy like that wont be hard to find... :P

PS: i didn't take my camera so the pics r from the web site XD

My last year...

Summer has past and school is here once again. grrr. i wish i had appreciated the last days of freedom, but what the hell, there gone now, no need to wallow over it any more. like i mentioned, i'm back in school and yes it is my last year, as you can already tell from the title of this post :P i'm one of the oldest student in my grade, so i have already been thinking 'bout my future since 9th grade. i've gone from wanting to be a singer to (what i have recently just discovered) interior design. i always get nerves when i think that by the end of the year i'll have to have chosen a college and what to study, they always say you have time no one has a gun at your head, well it shore dame feels like i do... i guess i'll stop talking about it 'cause i'm starting to freak out and no one want that, right? jajaja
So my last days of summer i spent at home or at the beach, not with my friend. yes i know that summer is to most people equal to going out on weekend with friend, meeting new people, etc. but i usually like to spend it at home or with the family, it's just, i've felt for a long time that i need a new scenery, a change. my mom tells me that change will come in time, grr, i hate it when she says thing like that, i mean i know she's right, but she couldn't she lie to me, at least once? :)... going on, i met my sister's friend from Brasil, Alfredo, she met him the summer she went to work at dsiney. He's really cool, and he was really nice to me and got along great with the rest of the family. he only came for 2 week, so when my sis came back after dropping him off at the airport she was sad, duh!, he is her best friend and i have my speculations that, maybe, a little more XD jiojio
PS: 1) sorry for jumping from one subject to another, and 2) i have to say that school has change sooo much. i mean they're getting to be really strict and it's getting annoying, just had to let it out :P

The pic is of my family, alfredo & me : )

The beach...

So since it is summer, i've been relaxing, going to the beach and of course doing (sometimes) absolutely nothing jejeje. what can i say, that is what summer, for me, is all about. i have been obsessed with trailers of movies i know either will take a LONG TIME in coming or maybe never come :S (that would suck big time); movies like: *500 day of summer, letters to juliet, dear john, the last song, *new york i love you, remember me, *adam, *bright star, nowhere boy ('bout john lennon!!) the movies with this * next to them i have seen, just no in theaters :P
on the other days, when i actually did something out of the confines of my home, i went to the beach like last week i went to Totoritas, a beach where my uncle and grandpa rented a house, i love how calm and peaceful the sound of the ocean makes everything... i went with my 2 cousins and sister, so we had fun... XD i got tanned FINALLY! jeje

The beach...

FINALY!!... We went to the beach yesterday, meaning that the season of sunny, long and full of relaxation have arrived XD what could go wrong? just about every thing... ok ok, i'm exaggerating jeje, not much, just some thing here and there with the peoples living in my uncles (rented) beach house, but as long as i can go and get a tan i'm happy!
Like every perrrfect day it must come to an end, yes, but you go home to reality thinking that thanks to your good mood, at lest the next day will be calmer, sweet tranquility, etc. NOT A CHANCE! the complete opposite happens, you get up with a "good" mood, but a little, you must admit, bothered by something you can put your finger on... but still the day goes on, soon every one is up, problem is that there in the same type of mood as you. add it all together with a hint of "we have nothing to do" and your sister is a pain in the ass and just doesn’t have a filter for what she says or a radar to worn her that of what she should or shouldn’t say and when... what do you receive? Nothing, actually you lose all that you thought you had gotten from those precious moments at the beach, leaving you with that "i want to be left alone" and "i don't give a crap about YOUR problems" mood.
That how my day was... How 'bout yours?, bet not, and i'm glad for you...
so here in my room right now listening to A Rocket to the Moon, trying to recapture the feelings i had when i was close to the ocean... = )