2 days in...

cookie from karol

brownie from karla

 CHEESECAKE!

with honey mae (prima)

so i turned 20 this Thursday (24/05)

it doesn't feel like my previous birthdays, it's like i got old, not physically, but in my soul :S i guess it might be cause i started to realize how little time i have left to actually establish my life... i know people say you have your entire life, so just take your time, be calm, but if i want a kid young i probable will have to find the guy before i'm 30 witch only leaves me with 10 years!!... and i want to know him a few years before we get married, now i'm down to 8 years, and i want to have a job before i get married, so let’s say i now have like 7 years and i finish (if i finish) in 5 years college! my my how will i get this all done in such "little" time.

i know i might be overreacting, but i just wanted to say what i was thinking, which is why i created this blog in the first place :P

i had a really nice birthday party, just the family, we ate CHEEESECAKE!! (my fav) and Doritos that's another fav of mine. i got money, a bracelet and body cream from the family. since i had class that day, i got to see my friend too, and that made it all that more special, they came and gave me hugs and some even got me food!!, i got a cookie and a brownie, both were soooo good!!! i loved it! 

the only thing i must complain about is my sweet yet spoiled cousin Sage, she has this show she loves and since her dad and brother and sister were coming to see me, she couldn't stay home and watch... in the end she was a ball of angry energy that didn't ever say HB to me... bitch ¬ ¬ 

i got lots of love on facebook, which is sweet, i guess. before people would call, now the just post on FB, all ok though :D 

i went shopping today with my sis, spending the b-day money, she got pissed when i bought a sweater that turned out to be like 20% off, she says i have luck when it come to shopping, every time i get something it either 2 for 1, or x% off, not fair, but i think its ok haha :) she got shoes. pretty ones.

apart from all the birthday updates, i wanted to talk about the disney thing. so far it's all going great, nothing is holding me back. except in the last test the USIL had, which was a physiology interview, to see how well i could handle myself living on my own and working in a "foreign" country, thing is that the teacher that questioned me knew a lot about me, what i mean is she knew about my problem during my first semester in college!! :( and at the end of the in seamed that i would be able to coup with the pressure that come with going to work at disney... my sis says i answered perfectly the questions and that they just wanted to see my reaction, i do some what believe her, yet a part of me still won’t be fully calm till the results come out next month (reeeeeally long time!)

Wish me luck! :)

stupid friends...

found on we heart it

hello. i writing from my college hallway, ext to the door to my classroom :P i'm here feeling a bit guilty and a lot furious! today i had to read like two chapters for the class i'm waiting for, so that my friends and i could do an activity. well silly me, i thought that we only had to do the homework (extract 10 point from the chapters before) and did't read what was intended.
so as i received the call from V, i slowly reacted and new i had no time to read before the class. and so i didn't :P my friends didn't arrive till a few min before, but i did and ran into other people who had also forgotten about the text. so i felt a bit better, yet when my friends arrived they looked at me with shame, and not the "oh u silly girl, but oh well, we'll still work together", no the look said "hey, how stupid can u be, i mean it was a short text, and if u forgot what part, read it all!" yup, it made me feel worse than how i felt in the morning :( stupid.
i have now realized that they the type of girls that will always read ahead, just so they can finish first or "do it better", which doesn't not bother meat all, just they're sooo paranoid, i mean more than half the class didn't read, so i'm guessing it wasn't so important, besides the teacher is relaxed, if she were strict, then i would have forgotten in the first place.
i do all the manual stuff in the class activities, write, talk, etc. i'm not saying i won't help, in fact i put most ideas in the last two, so fuck them.
thank god i have more friends, with whom i'm joining instead of the other girls, they weren't upset about me not reading, and there were more relaxed.
and on top of everything! when they saw me hand in the homework, they looked shocked, i'm not an idiot! i just didn't read! for today i will not speak to them, but they made me feel bad, ruined all my good vibe. stupid stupid girls!

say what...

just wanted to post pictures i took a while back, beginning of march, the first ones are of my "cousins" Isabel and her brother Alexander, they're from France well she is, he was born in Florida, but their mom is a pure french lady. the rest are of my friend Andrea ans me, wasting time is the cafeteria.

Badabing...

lately i've been feeling a little to relaxed. up to the point that you know your missing something or forgot to do a project for class, when actually i haven't. i though it would pass after a day or two, but so far, though it has simmered down a bit, it's not gone completely.  i guess you could call it "feeling a bit blue", yet no reason why. hopefully it will pass soon.

apart from that, before i started this post i read the older post about the guys i liked when i was little. and i think, wow i'm glad all that is over, i mean no more fallowing the boy or adding him on messenger and Facebook :P now i look at cute guys from a distance, still no action haha. i in rolled in an student exchange workshop, that will take me to work at Disney at the end of the year, how awesome is that?! XD can't wait! i have high hopes it will result in new friends and yummy food... i need a douse of chewy chocolate chip cookies.

i also have an announcement, i have another blog, and art blog. not that i'm an artist, yet, but i'm mainly posting the projects and homework i'v done the pasted year. so go check it out if you want :)

so i'm writing this post from my college's study room, and going back to the cute guy thing, one guy just happened to sit a few seats away from me, seen him before too. long hair for a guy, curly, dark brown and best of all he has a beard, so you know i love beards, it make a guy look older ;)  (i feel like a staker :S) thing is that the last time i saw him,  not that this is a big deal or that he actually noticed i was an available girl whom everyday sits in the same desk across from him and all, but for my innocent little heart it means much more; he smiled at me and turned on the AC, and he did it again today, to understand better, the study room is an oven if the Ac isn't on and we r all being roasted alive, if not for the guy that has the cutest smile and eyes and know how the control works :P.

well its almost nine o'clock, which means i have class soon, all leave you there wondering about the older guy and is to come haha bye.

pics r of my friend Karol and me