here i come mickey...

i might live in one of these houses, or ones similar to them :D

must eat at Be Own Guest and...

go on  the indiana jones ride

I'M OFFICIALLY GOING TO DISNEY!!!

i will be working at Disney this summer :D i'm sooooo excited! i just got the news today, i had to get up early and go to uni and wait for the slow man at the desk to look though the list of student that also got excepted, until finally he found my name and turned and smiled. AHHHHH i was at first a little shocked that i would be working in operations, because i did mention during my interview i'm a little shy in front of a big crowd, and this position mean talking in front of people a LOT... i knew i was going to have to help people all the time, but speaking to an audience is a bit to much... i said this to him, maid it very clear.

but still he gave me operations :S so i guess he knows more... still i can't wait to go!! i'll be leaving the place i have'd lived for 11 years, and go live on my own for the first time EVER! December 9th!! Only 139  Days or 19  Weeks and  6  Days till i'm off on my adventure :D

going to the states for 3 months all by myself will be a challenging, we'll not completely alone cause i'll have flat mates, but till no mom or dad :S... and buying my stuff, grocery shopping, etc. all these new experiences, nervous and excited :), i can't stop smiling, which is good, because when i work at Disney i'll have to all the time.

this semesters to come will fly by so fast, i know it, and soon i'll be on the plane :) if anybody has advice on living with new people, i welcome them.

spending a day in bed...

 Collage of  how i studied for my economy final 

so my vacation have officially started... but just my luck, i'm sick like a dog, stuck in bed, sneezing and coughing every 5 sec. :S sooo not how i imagined my first weekend of freedom.

Though i did have a pretty good time with my friends, as we celebrated the end of the horrible finals with few beers, soda and must not forget the PIZZA!!

it was also the first reu i've ever had, since i started college, with my college friends... yup, never before. i found out a lot about them, like the fact that they're not as wild as i expected and that they don't drink much, really. i remember a while back (like a year ago to be exact) i was all, my friends and closest cousins drink, how come i’m the odd one out that doesn’t see the awesomeness to it, but then discovered how it's not fun to get wasted but the pick-me-up it gives at a certain moment, anyways i'm still just a social drinker, i guess that’s what you can call someone that was peer pressured into drinking a beer :P jajaja ok ok, it was my choice, but i must admit i'm weak and that i easily follow the crowd :S, not proud of it, but that’s me, wow i was rambling a lot.

going back to my friends, they drink a bit, but not all out wild, which actually make me love them all that more. not that i would hate them if they did drink, it’s just the show me fun time without alcohol, reminded me of when i was a kid. they're not boring, we talk, laugh... i just like them  a lot... and i'm glad to say, i will got out more, but with them, and finally separate myself from my cousins friends or sister's friends or family friends, and make a good long lasting connection with these friends.

this discovery make me sad because of the fact that i'm leaving this summer to go work at Disney, though i'll live the entire time on my own (flat mates) without the family, what bums me out is not spending the summer with my friends, ones i actually have a great amount of thing in common with, a group whom i share a lot of personal info about themselves.. i just don't want to distances myself from this, them. this is just how i'm feeling, even if i disappear for years, i know i'll come back and they'll welcome me back with open arms.

apart from this, nothing else to report. my cousin Alex is here once again, till the end of july, begging of august, so that means my entire time off :S ok and not, she's been coming to stay here since july 2010, which means a hole 2 years ago, love the company, but sometimes when you just want to be lazy and not go out and relax from all the hard work you did during the semester, or feel like cause of you your cousin is bored at home doing nothing, and worst of all i might not even get away (alone time) at Disney, for she lives in Cali, and is overwhelm with joy to come visit me :/ god only knows way the future does not want me to rest...

ah, i will find a way to way out or just deal with it... i want to make clear i love alex with all my heart ♥

It might be hard to handle...

 my b-day pic (20yo)

ok, the big day has finally passed, i went up in front of the class and said everything i needed to say. yet what should make me utterly happy, has in fact made me feel all that more stupid. yup, i  think all never get over stage fright, and i'll probably always forget how i come out in the end (OK) but what gets to me is how much stress i put on myself, up to the point that even after i'm done with it all, i get an ENORMOUS headache, like if god is telling me "see, you over reacted, and here is your punishment... muahahah!" well minus the evil laugh, i got him spot on i think haha XD

since i got all crazy the last few days, emotions flying in every direction, i found a way to distract myself... it might seem a bit self absorbed, but i don't care... i like my pictures ans i have lots of fun editing them, plus i haven't took pictures in a while, so all the one i have are of me :D

picmonkey.com.... if you were wondering where I edited the pictures

yes, i'm fine? True or False?...

i never knew my stage fright would get worse, i understood that it was never gonna get over it, but i hate that now i can't even think about going in front of a class,when i still have 2 days to get ready. it's not fare.
i try to remember what Katia told to ask myself every time i get nervous about class work or projects:
do you get bad grades?
can the person grading you, physically hurt you?
do you really not know what your gonna talk about?

but the answer to all those questions is no, but then why do i get all anxious, that i can't even sleep well or i sleep but get up with a wired feeling, like the kind you get when you know your forgetting something, yet your really not :S
i did the breathing technique and the imagination one (where you picture a peaceful place that make you happy and feel safe, etc) still the sensation stays. i told my mom, how pathetic, a 20 yo telling her mom that she is scared of speaking in front of her class :( i almost cried, no wait, i did... i felt better though, letting it out, whether it be through writing or talking, i think it's helped a bit... and maybe the pill my mom gave me to help me sleep.
i write soon to say how it went... 'cause i believe i won't even be opening the internet (chrome) this week.
wish me luck... :)