Deal
with the changes going on in your life right now because they're not going
anywhere -- they might even be speeding up. It's all going in the right direction, even if it
doesn't seem that way.
A step
or two is missing in your dating game plan. No, really -- you may have
triple-checked it, but something essential isn't in there. What about having
fun? Loosen up, lighten up and your mood will take a step
up.
You're
having a hard time reading someone -- and the problem is that it's you! If
you don't know what you want, you surely can't expect anyone else to know, so do everyone a favor and get in touch with your feelings.
--
something
happened recently, by recently i mean saturday night. something that i wanted
to happen, but not exactly at this point in my life, i'm going away for 3
months, so i can't really concentrate on it. i make it sound like a problem,
when in fact its kind of a great, awesome, wonderful, never imagined would
happen type of thing.
so you
all get the gist of what this incident was. before i explain this i must make
sure you all know how incredibly fucked up my luck is with guys. there is
a word i blame my lack of luck on and it is "but", why does this word
always appear after ever great moment in my life (romantic wise)... examples:
- guy #1: two weeks before class
ends, he tells me he likes me; but he's moving to another state this
summer.
- guy #2: at the end of the year
he tells me he really likes me and would love to my boyfriend, but he also
likes this other girl and he just can't decide (all this after an entire
year of flirting)
- guy #3: after maintaining a
good relationship as friends, even though he changed colleges and kind of disappeared
for a while, confessed that he had feelings for me, yes had, so i also
admit this occurrence... during this going away party we stay slightly
close to each other, then the obvious happened and BOOM! i
remember something . yup, but i'm leaving in a week to go work for
3 months to the US..shit!
yes with this last guy the ending
doesn't have to be exactly that, an ending; if i hadn’t planed on
"finding" someone this summer (fantasy: stranger who falls head over
heels for moa) this would be a no brainer. thank god he is the most considerate
guy, he said we can see where this is going when i come home... 3 MONTHS LATER
WTF! i can’t wait that long, a lot of thing can happen... he’s not even ugly,
and i'm leaving for the summer, SUMMER!! if he takes off his shirt, i loose!
maybe this is the part that people
say love is blinding, but for me he is a
catch. and if i don't lose him thanks to his hotness, he might get drunk at a
party and another girl might kiss him and realize why i just don't want to wait
the summer for.
he told me i can do whatever i want
during the summer, he said go on have fun... experience life, meet people and
if i don't come back with a boyfriend, and i still want to see if this (him and
me) can work, i just have to call, he'll be there.
HE EVEN GIVES ME A WAY OUT!!!
this post really helps, you know?
letting it all out. i should listen to him... like it says in my
horoscope: Loosen up, lighten up and your
mood will take a step up. i
should just have fun this summer, and let what happens happen.
