i wrote this post a few days ago... maybe more like a week ago, i basically just ramble about a strange day...
today, i woke up and it felt like summer. it was eight am and the
sky was well gloomy, so i guess it really wasn't like summer, but i felt like
it was. classes are at a halt, mid semester exams next week. i sort of have
time on my hands to do a lot or nothing if i want to. so i decided to sleep a little
longer. next thing i remember is seeing the clock (ten am), felt even more like
vacation. my sister asked if i wanted to see a movie, of course just up my
answer was going to be a "no thanks" with a smile, but it turned out
a "yeah..." with a smirk.
i don't recommend
watching an alien based film in the morning, not that it wasn't any good, it
was, just my brain doesn't work so fast at this stage of my day.
saw the movie and
now i'm here in my room, in bed doing absolutely nothing... be sides posting i
guess. only 71 days till i'm off to work in Orlando i have things i really want
to do, and i hope i get to do them all; though they're not big goal. i want to
go into a real book store, yup i want to see all those book on shelf’s and
pick, read, decide if i want to take it or if not and put it back, all this
without a person following you around sort of pressuring you to purchase one
soon (that actually just makes me want to leave). i have a list of the ones i
want to read, probably best to start looking for those, but smelling the book
store is one of the things i miss of when i was little.
second, i want to
walk around, see what i can find, maybe this is just too much influence from
movies, but who cares really? if i want to walk and hope to find a small
forgotten store were i go in and find a precious item, i'm not bothering anyone
while doing it. and if i don't so be it, i walked, and probably lost some
weight.
this trip will be the first time living on my own, what if i change to much, not physically but emotionally? could happen right, meet people, live thing (experiences) change my life path. that make me wonder what if i'm not changing it, was it meant to go in another direction from now on? who really knows.
this trip will be the first time living on my own, what if i change to much, not physically but emotionally? could happen right, meet people, live thing (experiences) change my life path. that make me wonder what if i'm not changing it, was it meant to go in another direction from now on? who really knows.
i might just be
overwhelmed by the travel and leaving for only three months. And it could actually
turn out to be the complete opposite, nothing of what i expected, mean people,
coming back the same old me, no life altering moments. maybe i do want
something to happen, not romantically, that most likely won’t be the case, but
actions, decisions.
i saw an odd movie
about clones last night, the way it was filmed was strange too. i used to
really think i was meant to live in the past or how others say "my past
life", i put myself in the years 1960's, but then i thought, i'm not one
to think like they did and just because i like the music doesn't mean i agree
on their life style, i probably wouldn't fit in. seeing the movie i imagine
me there, future; odd and advanced, but still entangled with the past, thats me.
will i get there, to live all of what may come?
see what i mean,
watching movies so early and about odd things that makes you think soo much, just
wacked me for the rest of the day... :)
