19 years old...

dad cooking jeje :)

i feel no different, actually i even feel younger, but not in good way. i'm still feeling scared, anxious and nervous a times, for no reason. getting used to college is harder then i thought, but i'm trying my best to surpass it. but my mom, just in case, is going to take me to a psychologist to find out what can been done (how to stop me from felling this way) she says i'm going to make myself sick if i keep acting this way. i believe shes right...

anyways, going back to my birthday, i had a family reunion, Butifarras and cake! YUMM!

the hole family cam, well that obvious, 'cause we all live together XD

today in class, all my friends congratulated me and i had nice day too

i got nice gifts, like the one in my other post :) nothing else happened

Till today, we got great new about Aitana, she opened her eyes just a little XDD we're still hoping for more movements, but doctors say that its a good sign .

pics are of yesterday night...

Early birthday gift...

Pictures taken by Roxana Alva

Ok so today, i got up around 7:00 am cause we (mom, cousin cachi & me) planed to go donate blood to help Aitana :) who i must say is moving a little more each day, the doctors don't say much, but we keep r hopes high
well, after going to the hospital (we didn't get to give blood in the end) we came home and my sis told me to go with her to pick out my gift XDD
so of course i said yes, little did i know she was taking me to Juicy Couture!!! literally i had no clue, so it was the best feeling :D i walked in and a girl said "how may i help you” and Andre said "hi, it's her birthday and i want to get a charm", i was still *o* jajajaja
so after mulling over which one i should take, either the Eiffel tower or the maracas, i want with the maracas (colors) BEAUTIFUL!!!!!
i'm soooo happy.... i even got a pretty bag :))
i showed it off, a bit, all in all i was just really happy.
thank u sissy

isn't she lovely (8)...

the song of the week is dedicated to her

So on May 11th, 2011 my baby cousin Aitana was born :D the little one everyone was waiting for finally arrived. But what was supposed to be a wonderful day, as we all planed to order chifa and eat and drink to celebrate, turn out to be a very sad thing. When the doctor got her out he noticed she didn't cry, only for a few second, she hasn’t even opened her little eyes yet.
she is in intensive care, round the clock docs, but no one can go in and see her, well besides my aunt and uncle. i haven't even been able to go to see my aunt in the hospital :S, they tell me she’s BEAutiful, and from what i can see from the pictures Roxy gave me, she BIG (3.5K) :O so she looks strong.
i asked my mom, everyone actually, when she will get to come home... they say she will spend 15 days in intensive care, but we will have to wait for her to wake up on her own :((
Mis tios are the same ones that lost my cousin Alon (cancer) he was 7 or 8... i don't remember, but it wasn't long ago. so when they got the news of this baby (girl, finally after 3 boys) she was a ray of sunshine, something good and happy to come, why is it that now everything has changed, gone bad.
i'm hoping that since today is the day of "la virgen de Fatima, she will send a miracle and give us Aitana back, cause we all need her, La baby we call her, the youngest one of the family. Like my mom says, it doesn’t mater if she will need therapy, as long as she can have a normal life, a good one.
so if you read this, please pray for her, and if you don't have a religion that all right, just wish us well, that's enough :)

PS: the pictures are of mothers day and Aitana (Roxy got to take some while they were moving her to a new room)