Three long days...

First of all MARY CHRISTMAS!! well every year my family has three hectic days; the 23, when my grandpa invites all of his brothers and sisters and there sons and daters (+ there kids). the 24 we celebrate Christmas, we all had lots of fun (wired thing was we all got dressed up :P ), we ate a lot! since my close family is really big lots of food leftover.
the last day was the 25, when my family in particular gets up and goes to see my dad's side of the family, we exchange gifts and then in the afternoon we go to a party of my dad's old friends, were of course we EAT!. jajaja i'm supposed to look good for summer, but with all that’s gone on , that ain't going to happen :P
here are some pics of those days

Family...

i went shopping today with my dad. i thought, at first when he asked me if i wanted to go, that i would have a terrible time (my dad hasn't been happy or at lest that what it looked like till now), but it turned out that we had fun, looking for gifted for a few people for Christmas :)... we talked and i had a good time. believe it or not i actually talked about politics and of course my dad explained most of it so i understood XD... i usually do get alone with my dad, i mean when were alone, because right when we got home and my mom and sister joined us, the looks, the rolling of the eyes, murmured comments of "how could he buy that", etc. GRRR! my day went from high to low in 1 second.
it amazes me how i can get along great with one on one with each member of my family, but mix it up and put three together BOOM! everyone has a face that says "your wrong", "don't do that"; be careful what you say cause in this family you say something in a different tone and immediately everyone asks "are you angry?", "way r you mad?!?" and you can't explain what you really meant, there’re all mad, which makes one mad... and like i said before BOOM! the emotion went from happy to sad to unbearable tension.
So i decided that i will not speak when more then three are present (mom, dad & me, another example mom, my sis & me, etc.) and if i am one on one i'll limit my comments about there comments about other peoples or the comments about there problems to a simple "um-hum" or "oh..." or "i guess your right". (hope it will work, and reduce the tension that, i think, is making me every day lass comfortable in my home and making me stay cooped up in me room most of the day wishing i lived in another world where i belong to a family that can actually say what the mean and do what they like most, and everyone 'in time' understands) :P

Letting it all out...

Good morning! i had a need to write today earlier than before :D cause i tried to draw (nothing happened), try to forget it (couldn't) so now i'm here, with this thing inside me and no way to get it out... it's about my future, next year is my last year in school : i guess i'm scared, what if it's just like school... nobody understands me, i mean i believe in LOVE, nothing means anything without it... I WANT IT! but sadly my generation only believes in living, traveling, money, fame, etc (ok, so that's what most people want) and i know that's what everybody says, but i'm not lying, nobody want to think about "that special someone", i understand, a little :P man i contradict myself A LOT. anyways after analyzing that, i started to ask myself "i'm i choosing the right thing to study?" i'm i going to succeed in it... and since no one really thinks i'll get far in life just by taking pictures (SHIT) what will i do, it's kind of hard to believe in yourself when no one believe in you.
Something that stayed with me all this time was what my sister said, after she slept in my room "hey lore, doesn’t get up, go out side and take those weird pictures of 'nothing'; it creeps me out", in other word it just plane stupid of you...

I’m glad i got in all out, even if i don't really understand what i wrote :P, forgive me if in the end you just read "blah blah blah" but it was my moment to let go... so the rest of my day (i hope) won't be so bad.

Summer...

Finally school is over and it's time to relax, well school was over last Thursday but since i was sick all that time, i just don't count them jejeje. i started (and finished XD) one of the books my aunt brought me from Miami (i order them through Amazon), "Swoon" by Nina Malkin and i started the second one "Sea Change" by Aimee Friedman, but i think i'll leave this it so all have something to read when i go to the beach in January. The book talks to much about the sea and beach that i just want to be there right now and that’s getting me into a gloomy mood (not good!) anyways today the sun was out, so my sis and i decided to go out and take in some sun, listening to music, me with my MP4 and my sis with her iPhone (grr) and don't forget Shane (our dog) annoying but we still love him.
i'm hoping that since the beginning of my summer started badly, you know with me being sick and all, that it isn't a reflection on how my summer will be from there on :( so i have my fingers crossed and i'm wishing every night that soon when i'm at the beach i'll have the time of my life, swimming and bike riding, etc (hopefully meeting new peoples...jijiji)

the pictures are: the books i bought, from todayin the sun and from the last day of school :P

PRE - PROM!...

i thought it was going to be the worst day of my life, boring and just uncomfortable, because i was going with someone i had just met the night before (to be exact at 9:30pm).. But i was completely WRONG, i had the best time.. i danced all night, had a few drinks, everything i thought that it wouldn't be. Carlos, my date, was the best, funny and a great dancer... there is no way i can repay Mafer for telling me to go with him! XD... so in the end all was ok, the dress, shoes, hair, makeup, perfume, etc. all good! it was the night i had waited for, hoped for, dreamed of and i finely got it... i'm super happy !